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Chapter IV
Note: It is this writer’s sense that it is best to tell the rest of the Real Story of Alex, and her owner, and her owner’s pals, in their own words through a set of “Q’s and A’s.”
Questions for the Slave-
Question: Does Jen love you?
Answer: Oh, my God, yes, she loves me. If I doubted that for a second, I would be gone! Off, like a prom dress. She loves me very much. It’s just that she’s a twisted, sadistic, creative, evil genius, and she shows it by taking everything I can give her; my pride, time, effort, mind, soul, future, screams, blood… well, everything.
She loves me to terror and distraction because can destroy me.
I know she loves me because she shows it in her unique way - by possessing my body, mind, and spirit.
I know because I’m a reflector of her love. The awesome, shattering, all-encompassing love I feel for her is an echo of what she feels for me.
I know because I’ve looked into her soul. I see an angel on each shoulder - one with white wings that protects me, and one with black wings that degrades, crushes, and shatters me.
I know, really know, that she couldn’t use me as she does if she didn’t love me.
And, I know because of the way she cares for me when I’m sick or injured, or when I really come apart at the seams, all tattered and loose.
But, most of all, I know she loves me because she told me so. And, even though she can and will hurt me in so many ways, and will take advantage of me in every way she can, I know, I just know with all my heart, and I’m right about this, she wouldn’t lie to me about her love; not about that. Not then, not now, not ever. She told me so, and she does tell me again and again, all the time.
She told me so! That’s how I know!
Question: How do you understand that you will be treated now that you signed a property transfer contract?
Answer: I am just a piece of my Owners Property. I don’t really deserve anything. If she want me to be degraded, and used and abused as the worthless slave that I am, then that’s what I’ll get.
She said she wants to make everything I am required to do to be as difficult for me as possible. I am a stupid cunt, and need to be kept in line by the real fear of the pain and misery I will suffer if I displease my Owner. And truth be told, all that makes me wet and needy.
Question: Have you ever done something as a slave girl you told yourself you wouldn’t ever do?
Answer: Oh, yes, all the time. I ultimately do what my Owner wants me to do, and if I resist, she finds a painful way to force me to do it.
Question: How often does Jen torment your nipples?
Answer: As often as she can. She bites them, twists them and pulls them. She also has nipple weights which she attaches to my nipple rings.
She has a device where a board is flattened between my tits and a turn-screw which stands out from the board. This turn-screw has pinch clamps which are hooked to my nipple rings. When she turns the screw, the clamps pull away from the board which in turn pulls my nipples out painfully.
I am also sometimes forced to clip my nipples to a ring in the wall and back up so that are stretched out painfully and hold my position under threat of being caned on the back of my legs with her very nasty Kevlar cane.
Jen also makes me wear a small sports bra to work because these bras are tight and crush my tits and my nipples, and, they really press hard into my nipple rings and nipple bars and squish them into my flesh which is quite uncomfortable all day.
Question: How does the ring in your septum come into play?
Answer: I am often leashed by it or left connected by it to one of the many hooks installed in the house. Each one of the hooks is placed where it is so I can be secured there. I hate to be left to suffer alone, and be ignored that way.
The worst use of it is when I am pulled up on my toes by the ring and have to stand on my tiptoes facing up at the ceiling. This position always hurts so bad and makes me cry.
Question: How long did it take you to be able to walk like a regular woman in the five inch ballet boots?
Answer: I don’t exactly walk like a ‘regular woman’ in them. I sort of prance. It hurts my toes badly. And, it is difficult to balance, especially when my arms are restrained behind me, which they usually are. It took about a year to be even remotely stable in them.
Question: What emotions do you feel when you admit “what you are” to your Owner or her friends?
Answer: When I admit what I am, I feel a rush of emotions all mixed together: shame, fear, intense sexual desire, and lustful excitement.
I don’t really understand myself why it excites me to be broken, used, tortured, and degraded, but it does, and it’s typical that when I even think about all this that I get all wet and horny.
Question: What do your parents know the extent of your relationship with Jen?
Answer: They know I am Jen's toilet, whore, and sex toy. I can’t hide what I am from them or pretend I’m not. Jen won’t allow it. They don’t know everything but they know what counts.
Question: What does you brother know of your relationship with Jen?
Answer: Jen has told him everything about us. She even gave him privileges to fuck me in all three holes. She won’t make me beg him to fuck me. He, on the other hand, makes me beg him to fuck me. But, he has to force me to do it.
Question: Did you ever have sex with an animal?
Answer: Yes, oh God yes! Jen let a friend of hers have his trained German Shepherd lick my cunt and then, she told me to cum with my eyes wide open and she looked me right in my eyes. It was a very, very degrading experience, and it was made the more so because the guy was watching me closely too.
I really lost it when I realized that I came from sex with a dog. She never let the dog fuck me and she never let him lick me again because she knew it really screwed with my head.
Question: Do you consider yourself a pain slut?
Answer: Yes! A reluctant and very frightened pain slut. When she is inflicting pain on me I get satisfaction from the attention she gives me… the attention I crave. Kind’a weird, huh?
Question: How did you get the scars on the undersides of your tits?
Answer: I had accumulated a long list of infractions and had recorded them on the legal pad Jen makes me keep, and Jen was ready to punish me for all of them all at one time in the “playroom.” As usual, I was scared and shaking at the thought.
Kelly marched me down to the “playroom” while grabbing onto my hair. Soon my arms were encased in a single armed bondage bag which drew my elbows together and wrenched my shoulders back painfully. She took the added step of adding a strap around the bag just above my elbows and pulling it extra tight. My tits stood out like eager puppies.
They backed me up to the cross and stretched my legs wide cuffing them to the bottom beams. Then they found other leather straps and bound my legs at the thigh and my waist to the cross as well. They also snapped a neck choker to the cross and fastened my head with straps, left and right, so that I couldn’t move.
Kelly kicked me in the cunt with her knees until I cried. Then she whipped my legs and cunt, leaving hurtful welts from a heavy leather crop.
Jen decided to work on my tits and nipples. She did some job on them but they seemed to take it well and she got mad when they remained perky and upturned. She said, “Your tits have no reason to be proud. They are just ridiculous, useless, ornaments. I should just cut them off and be done with them.”
Kelly thought that was a grand plan and hustled to the cabinet where Jen stores surgical supplies. She returned with a surgical scalpel and held it before my eyes. She made a grand show of sterilizing it with alcohol. I was justifiably terrified. When I screamed, they shoved a towel in my mouth.
Jen took the knife and ran it over my entire right tit playing it directly on my nipples but not breaking the skin. Then she said, “Well, this is it. Let the surgery begin.”
She picked up my right tit and nicked the underside of it with the sharp tip of the scalpel. She reached down and sucked off the droplets of blood with her tongue and came up to show me her treasure. I knew she meant what she would do to me and I literally was terrified - I pissed right on the floor, which only made her more angry with me.
But, then she lifted up my right tit again and this time I could feel the blade make an actual incision. I’m sure I passed out because I didn’t feel her make the next incision under my left tit. When she revived me, I did feel the blood trickling down from both cuts onto my stomach.
So, actually she didn’t cut off my tits but she made it clear, if she had a mind to, that she had the power and sadistic instincts to do it. The scars healed over in a few weeks without medical attention.
Question: How does Jen whore you out?
Answer: Jen finds the guys I am to have sex with. She makes sure they are safe, sane, disease-free and discrete.
She also makes certain that they are very well-hung, sadistic, cruel, and can maintain an erection for a long time and can do it more than once in rapid succession.
She does have me serve her women friends too, but as a slave not a whore.
I am only sold to men. I detest having sex with men so she loves to do this with me.
Question: Does Jen have a sequential routine for whipping you?
Answer: Yes! Oh, yes! Jen rotates my whippings to different parts of my body so my skin doesn’t have trouble healing. She is protective of me in that way, and will care for any wounds very carefully with alcohol, antibiotics, bandages, and what ever is needed, except pain killers.
The sequence she has set for my whippings is my cunt, then, some time days later, my ass, then my thighs, then my back, and sometimes my hands and the soles of my feet.
When she whips my cunt, I have to lie on my back and push upward to offer my wide open cunt to her, and then I have to beg for each, unrestrained, stroke. It is always very painful and the swelling is bad for days afterward.
I am required to remind her which body part is next in the rotation when she asks.
Question: In what ways do you serve as Jen's toilet?
Answer: I drink her pee at her request. I wipe her ass after she empties her bowels, then I lick her asshole clean.
Sometimes she will threaten me by saying that she will have me eat her shit or Kelly’s shit, but she hasn’t gone that far just yet. The whole idea makes me tremble and gag.
Question: Where do you normally sleep at night?
Answer: Jen cleared out a walk-in closet in my former bed room, which is now used just for me. She gave me two blankets, but no pillow. She puts tape on the door jamb so she can tell if I’ve left the closet in the night or not. She makes me wait till morning to pee. I’m only allowed to leave in the early morning or when she tells me to come to her.
I sleep in that carpeted closet most nights unless, as happens from time-to-time, she makes me sleep on the brick pad outside the rear door of the kitchen with no blankets.
Question: Who does your hair the color it is?
Answer: Jen won’t let me spend money to go to a hair salon and I have to dye it myself. Tara cuts it… badly, and I think it looks cheap - kind’a whore-like, which I guess is the point.
Question: How do you keep your mind on your work, especially the high pressure work you do, while in pain from recent tortures, and with vivid expectations of pain to come?
Answer: Being at work helps me clear my head of all the “neat stuff” at home because it’s the only time I can “turn off” the voice in my head that obsesses over pleasing Jen.
I get busy and engrossed in work and find that later, my thoughts have already organized themselves. It’s similar to a hard drive running on defag.
And, I can compartmentalize very well… always could; even when I’m still in pain from a recent punishment. My work is important to me, and I find it sort’a relaxing.
Question: What techniques do you use to pleasure a cock in your mouth? Can you take a cock all the way down your throat?
Answer: Now I can take a cock all the way down my throat without gagging. That took lots of training and practice.
When I suck a cock, I use my tongue stud to pleasure the guy and push my tongue out to lick the guys balls.
I open my throat wide as it slides down and I breath through my nose. And, then I swallow repeatedly and powerfully while the cock is in me as a way to massage the cock as it pulls out, I apply suction to stimulate it.
After I was fully trained, nobody ever complained.
Question: What techniques do you use to satisfy the guys who fuck your ass or cunt?
Answer: While being fucked, I do the same as when I suck. I move to meet the thrust of the cock and welcome the cock back inside me, milking it with my ass or cunt muscles while it is inside me. Then I squeeze it while it is pulled out. It seems to work for all comers; no pun intended.
I admit it, but while I don’t like to fuck the guys, I do get wet when the guys fuck my cunt. I have managed to cum from cocks in my cunt but only on Jen's command.
I would cum in church if she gave me the command - and she has threatened me with doing it, and I do not find it amusing.
I have never cum just from sucking cock.
Question: How do you handle two cocks in you at the same time - one in your ass and one in your cunt?
Answer: Having two guys inside me at once is brutal and degrading.
The guys Jen chooses are always very well hung. Two guys at the same time is not sexy to me in the least. The guys think it makes me tighter. But, I feel like I’m just two holes to dump a load of cum in. Jen makes me lick up whatever cum doesn’t go in me. Good protein I guess.
Question: Where did you learn your sexual service skills?
Answer: I was taught by a male Dom friend of Jen's. He is very particular as to how his cock is serviced. I did not enjoy his training and have no desire to be sent back for a refresher course. Hence, my attention to detail.
Question: How much satisfaction do you get from fucking a guy? Does size count?
Answer: Jen chooses guys with the biggest cocks she can safely find for me. She loves to watch me take them. I am a cheap whore. She says that as a worthless slut, she can’t charge more that $20 a hole or $50 for all three.
Yes, size does count, but not always in a good way. A huge cock can pound me and stretch me and hit the back of my cervix. That always makes me cry and feel so humiliated and used.
Normal cocks feel better. With the big cocks, I feel like I’m being raped, at least to my way of thinking anyway - lesbian that I am.
Question: What do you do with your whore related earnings?
Answer: Jen keeps the money in a special red purse and uses the money at Starbucks for herself and Kelly. It makes me nuts when I see her and Kelly drinking from a Starbucks cup and know what I had to go through to buy them their coffee.
Chapter V
Questions for the Owner -
Question: Do you love Alex?
Answer - Yes, I love Alex! Not like a lover’s love or even a partners love, but as a caring, special love.
I care for her not only because she is my property, and that I want to keep my property in good order, but I love her as my slave girl.
I tend to her when she is hurt and train her when she needs to be corrected so she can become the best slave possible.
I’m strict and intolerant of her mistakes and moodiness, but I do love her dearly, and I tell her that I do. And, I mean it!
Question: Do you get your kicks from controlling Alex?
Answer: Well, I admit, I’m a manipulative control freak myself, so when we first met, I wanted so much to take “Miss Compulsive and Perfect Control-Freak” and make her crawl for me.
I just mean that she was totally in control of her life when we met, and still is at work, that I was excited to take this rich smart, very-together, lady and make her my whore. I just love to train her and make her to do everything, and I mean everything, I order her to do.
Question: Can you tell when Alex is at the end of her physical endurance; is beyond absorbing further pain?
Answer: Yes. I have a simple test. If her cunt is wet, then she is being treated as she wants to be treated, whether she will admit it or not. Certainly, if she is bleeding or on the verge of passing out, I take precautions.
I won’t let her go into sub space. When I see her drifting off , I bring her back. I want her to feel the full intensity of the pain I administer.
But, I do push her. She cries, and begs, and shakes like a leaf out of fear. Sometimes, especially when I use electricity, she pees herself or pukes because she gets so frightened. It all takes a terrible toll on her and I have to be very careful.
I just push and push her so she’s got no choice really. She’s no different that a lot of the pain sluts I’ve met.
Question: How much do you give Alex out of her earnings for spending money; an allowance?
Answer: Alex gets $50 a week. She gets the money all in one dollar bills.
She has to use that money for everything she buys. I provide her work clothes and breakfast and dinner and lunch on weekends. Literally, for anything else she has to scrimp and save.
I love to watch her do her scrimping routine while I spend tons of ‘her’ money on myself and Kelly. I absolutely love it. She walks miles around the city to avoid paying cab fare or even the subway or a bus. If she buys anything for herself, such as makeup, she has to buy the cheap, or off-brand, stuff.
Being broke, and having to buy poor quality goods, degrades her even more than being my toilet or being my whore. Well, maybe not more than being my whore. That really grinds her pride into the dust.
Now getting the money from me is another matter. To get the money each Sunday she must clip 50 clothespins on her body. Then, she can trade each pin for a dollar. Hurts her like hell. Cute huh?
Question: How do you treat Alex during her monthly period?
Answer: First off, she can’t buy tampons out of her allowance. She has to beg me for them. And, I don’t always give them to her. I find ways to ignore her or sometime just give her two place mats to drip on while she crawls around, which she then must lick clean. That galls her too.
I don’t make her drink her own flow as yet, but, I’m thinking about it.
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